I guess I’ve reached the point when I can clearly
see that the life I had planned on has alienated itself from me, it’s
disappointing seeing it didn’t go as I intended.
Did I change that much from my original self? When
did the shift into a different outcome occur? Have we all changed that much
since our teenage years? Is humanity evolving into a careless society, consumed
with materialism and technology?
I imagine as we grow in years our values get moved
around and the heroic goals and ideas of the past, even though still there,
seem submerged under a lagoon of old and new concepts and thoughts.
The universe has been moving along and at
increased speed, I’m thinking.
New developments in science, medicine, lifestyles
and technology have changed the way today's teens plan out their lives.
Marriage and children are not the main goals of young girls anymore, but if
that is the case, they can now wait longer to achieve them.
Birth control, newly accepted morals and behaviors
and flexible parenting skills have all pooled to bring forth children like
mine, more open, picking careers they feel comfortable in.
I find that if I don't evolve I'm placed within an
‘older age’ category. It may be a word I
used years back, or the way I wear my hair, or a fear to fully adopt
technology. Wouldn’t it have been
unimaginable back in the 1920’s and 40’s that popular behaviors such as smoking
would be currently banned from all public places! Heck, even unthinkable in the
1970’s!
So evolution, really, arrives through ideas and
discoveries; we learn from our children, and we change with our children, I
know I do with mine. My original plans shifted somewhat to reflect the life
that was happening around me.
Moving forward and knowing that the universe isn’t
perfect have helped me come to terms, and to love and accept the way my life
has turned out to be.
